Anxiety.

I love the imperfect pictures like this.
Just feels so perfect.

It is almost Friday again.
This week has flown by.

I have been getting so many compliments on my temporary engagement ring. I would say that is pretty cool considering it only cost me $8 from the silver booth I worked at during the state fair. Definitely an awesome deal.

Not a lot has really changed since the last entry. I am working both jobs and not much more has been done. The hotel job is getting easier as I figure things out. I have a knack for always getting into the weirdest situations there. It really isn't too exciting at all.

Of course, we have valentines day rolling around this weekend. I cannot believe the crap people buy for this holiday. I have to walk through the valentines section every night I close at Starbucks and I am pretty sure I will be blind every time. :laughs: Everything is so pink and terrible. What is wrong with all of this? I am not saying it isn't nice to get flowers or anything, but to make an entire day that is devoted to men getting last minute teddy bears and candy. It just sounds stupid to me. Shouldn't everyday be filled with laughter and love with your, what's the word, lover? So silly and yet there is nothing I can do but sit back and watch the chaos.


There are only two primary things filling my brain lately. Money and planning. They go together like hummus and pitas. One fuels the others progress and I still feel like time is passing too quickly.

To be honest, this planning is really getting to me. I know what I want but cannot get to it unless I make the step to put down the deposits. We need save the dates and invitations. We need to confirm the ceremony/reception venue. We need to give money to the photographer and cupcake lady. We have yet to register, but we are registering through target, and who really wants to be there more than they have to for work? I really cannot let this cause a flare in my anxiety. I am worried that if I keep my cool, I might be too cool and get nothing done until the last moment.

I am planning and hoping to get my w2s this weekend and get my taxes filed away. So I give it two weeks or so until I see a return. My return is going straight to booking our wedding site. From then on we can bring on the wedding planning. I will probably be a bit elusive until then. Maybe I will just fill your head with stories. I certainly have plenty to tell. I just need to keep working and calm down a little. As well as squish my pennies together and save all that I can.


Michael is doing pretty well, as far as I know. He has been working full time still at Target. No word on the promotion yet. He has guitar lessons with an awesome little lady on Thursdays. So when we do see each other, things go well. We make some meals together and talk about ridiculous things.

I can't believe how awesome everything is. Really, I am constantly amazed that I got so lucky. Everything was so perfectly timed between us. I am so blessed to have such an amazing soul mate here. Mostly, I cannot believe he puts up with all of my nonsense.

oh prom. it feels like it was so long ago. why do i feel so old?