Pinhead

Well folks, I filed my taxes.

I should be able to swing a deposit on Summit Manor within the 1st week of the month. I just have my fingers crossed that the 26th of June isn't already booked. You know that would bring us back to square one. There is no way I am ready to go back there. I don't think I could handle searching for a new place, especially since our time to plan is so limited.

What else can I do but wait two weeks? I really have no choice. I continue to work and work and work. There is no end to this game. As sick as it may sound, I wouldn't mind adding a few more shifts to my schedule. Hours=money=wedding.

I feel like such a loser right now. Shouldn't I have this planned? Shouldn't I have this wedding in the bag? Shouldn't I have been able to save up enough by now? I mean, we have been engaged for a year and a half now. I should've, would've, could've. They say "hindsight is 20/20" for a reason though, right.

If you would like to keep your fingers crossed as well, that would be amazing. We can use all the help we can get. Some nights I am so desperate to make this happen I seriously consider baking brownies to sell for the cause. How silly is that? Meh, maybe I will just start giving plasma on my days off.

Okay kids, just a quick update. I need to sleep tonight.